Mayim Bialik social media has been about “Big Bang Theory” character Amy’s wedding journey for weeks and she looks like she’s having a blast.

In a personal vlog, she shares that it wasn’t all happy. She was married from 2003 to 2012 and has two sons, Miles, 12, and Frederick, 9. She’s 42 years of age and said picking the dress “brought up a lot of things that I personally am not comfortable with,” like “being a divorced woman trying on traditional wedding dresses.” There were concerns that everyone would now ask her about future remarrying plans with one of her big concerns being people feeling pity for her.

Amy and Sheldon are expected to tie the knot on the May 10 episode of “Big Bang Theory.”