It’s been a year and a half since Demi Lovato was hospitalized for an overdose, and now she is sharing an inspiring message about her relapse and eating disorder on Thursday’s episode of The Ellen DeGeneres Show.

Demi gets deep about her addiction, sobriety, and recovery, and opens up about her former staff who used to control everything she ate, which resulted in an eating disorder. She even told Ellen that her former staff used to remove everything that had sugar in it from her dressing rooms, even would she would visit Ellen’s show, AND they would even take the phone out of her hotel room so she couldn’t call for room service! WHAT?! WOAH!

Good news is, she is now focused on being happy and healthy and is doing really well!